It's such a powerful thing to have, and when it's missing, it doesn't always jump out at you as THE thing that if affecting you or impacting your life. A lot of the time, you only realise later, when you HAVE IT, that is was missing at all.
This is my story.
I have struggled with fluctuating weight my entire adult life, and it has at times made me feel inferior as both a rider and a woman.
As a self confessed horse nut all day every day, I never really used to pay too much attention to my appearance, I mean, I rarely looked in the mirror, and most of my time was spent dealing with horses, and not interacting with other people.
A particular moment absolutely shattered me when I went shopping at a local equestrian store for a pair of new breeches.
I was greeted by a seemingly perfect young woman, friendly and smiling and dressed immaculately in the latest clothing. Being someone who looked like I just mucked out 30 stables, unloaded a trailer of hay, and rode 4 horses, I straight away felt a tad uncomfortable.
So, I get to the breeches rack, and pick out a size 12, which is what I have on at that very moment, mind you it is at least 3 years old and worn to the point there is a decent sized hole in the crotch....
I can't even get them over my knees. Have my legs become THAT big?! So I grab a 14... these get a bit higher, but are that tight around my butt that I'm scared I may have already busted a few stitches in the seam.
So, I go a 16. These I can get on, but they hug me in all the wrong places, and are loose everywhere else. When I turn and look at my rear end in the mirror, I literally want to vomit. I fight back tears, as I know little miss perfect outside is waiting to ask me how I'm going.
What am I going to say? "Yes, these ones are perfect for making me look like a hippo and feel like a slob"?!
I sprint- walk out of the shop and get into my car and just explode into tears.
I really saw myself and my flaws so deeply that day, and realised how much I needed to make a change for my own self esteem and confidence.
I started on a journey of trial and error, exploring designs and fabrics, and finding things in life that made me feel like I could truly express my quirky sassiness and unlock this hidden confidence that I knew was inside me somewhere.
5 years later, I just know that other women, and plenty of them, must have felt like this, and I want to help change that. And, with a lot of hard work and determination, Beci Equi Couture was born.
I have made clothes that flatter. Clothes that bring out your best bits, clothes that make you feel comfy but like a BOSS at the same time. Clothes that have non horsey people asking where they can get a pair. Clothes that are made for riding, and styled for LIFE.